Anexis Matos

Blind author, content creator, and freelancer

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Hi, everyone! I’m Anexis and my pronouns are they/them. Nice to meet you! I’m a blind college student majoring in english with a concentration in creative writing. I’m a content creator who began on YouTube with the channel Videl Blind-The Blind Reader. I now currently run the channel Anexis Matos and no longer post on my old one. I started blogging to share my writing. I’ve always enjoyed stories. I started writing when I was between the ages of 10 and 12. My stories started out as Dragon Ball fanfiction which will never see the light of day because I deleted them. Now, I write original stories that I hope to share at some point. My aim with this blog is simply to share my thoughts on whatever interests me. From reviews to blindness, you’ll see it here.

Category: Poetry

  • The Best Version of Me

    The Best Version of Me

    I buried you.Destroyed you.Why are you here?Quiet.Weak.Unsure.Why are you here? I’m back to being you,the version of meI never wanted to be.Quiet.Weak.Unsure,but here I am.Here you are. You hold my hand.Yours is soft.You are a child.Your smile is warm.You offer me kindnesswhen I don’t deserve it. I’ve abandoned you.Pushed you away.Buried you.Destroyed you.I made sureyou…

  • I Will Burn Down the World for You

    I Will Burn Down the World for You

    I will burn down the world for you, he says.He says thiswith confidence,leaving no room for argument. He’s arrogant.Delightfully so.Annoying,but incredibly appealing.It turns me on. He may be a little toxic,but he always,without failure,says the right things.Does the right things.He’s toxic,but he’s perfect. He’s probably fae.In fantasy, anyway.If he’s human,definitely rich. He’ll hand me the…

  • A Letter to Younger Me

    A Letter to Younger Me

    You were right.I’m sorry to say you were.It’s hard to admityou always were,but you were. Surprisingly,you understoodbefore I ever did.You understoodhow things were.How things can still be.What I refused tofor many years. Somehow,I couldn’t see.It took exploration.A story.A character.Someone similar to me. Things have changed,but not by much.Things are better,but not always. My advice is…

  • The Girl From the Dark Side

    The Girl From the Dark Side

    I never liked her,but she’s still there.Just waitingto be released.She bides her timeuntil she knows she can come outand release her rageupon her target. Her dark eyesstare out into the world.She constantly looks at her surroundingsand glares at thosewho have made her who she is.She remembers her pastand glares at her memorieswhile she plungesinto an…

  • Somewhere I Know

    Imagine sitting on an empty land.A mysterious pathway welcomes you.A world you know like the back of your hand.A place of light and joy for only two. A planet of alien emotions.A fantastic mystical dimensionwhere feelings are like clouds of deep oceans.A different state of no deception. A stunning picture of tranquilitythat only comes through…

  • Dear Reader

    Dear reader,My mind is a mystery.I discovermore than I know.My mind is a mazeof closed doorsand unexplored corridors.When I enter a new one,I find something delightful. Dear reader,My mind spinswith new stories.New worlds.New universes.New creatures.New people.I never have names for them,but I can’t wait to see them.They’re a part of mebefore they become real. Dear…

  • The Truth of Blindness

    I walk among them through the hallways blind,wondering what they find so frightening.Walking with them, nothing is brighteningand I see that true friends are hard to find.When someone happens to say something kind,the endless pressure is less tightening.Everything they say is enlightening,but the storm of emotions can still bind. Their words and voices echo in…

  • Sound Memory

    Do you remember the memory ofthat sound? What is it about that great soundthat covers you in a memory glovethat takes over you and spins you arounduntil you arrive at a different time?To this day, you remember where it camefrom and why it’s a reference to this rhyme.You remember that great sound by its name.It…

  • A Selfish Choice

    I love youlike I love very few.There are moments when you irritate me,but I’m sureI do the same to you. There are momentswhen I hate you.Despise you.Wonder why people push you on me.Question why I would want you. You cry.Scream.Whine.Complain.Irritate me.Exhaust me.Drain me.You make me hate you. You want connection.A bond.I can give you that,but…

  • The Demon In the Snow

    I need to make a bloody callto keep a secret from them all. I want to be the stabbing knifeand silently cut strands of life. Those are the words I tend to sing,my low sweet voice like dark bells ring. I whisper words that flow so sweet.Their lives I claim like food you eat. The…